hey, that guy i was telling you about. He ask me out on friday, i am soooo happy. i really like him, he's going with me, tweety, taylor, katie bug and taylor's boyfriend to shop for my birthday. Well i'll be 15 in 7 days i am soo excited well gotta go. Bye!

-caitlin

hey ppl,

   srry, i haven't written in awhile. but i have to tell you about this boy!! he's soooo sweet, sometimes i think that he likes me but the other day, he said he doesnt think its right to go out with middle school girls. (he's a freshmen) Im as old as him though ill be 15 in 15 days. yaaaaaaa.n e way, my awesome friend candice was talking to him and she asked him what he thought about me and he said i was really cool, but that could mean anything. He's going to the movies with me and the youth group to see the passions movie on tuesday. this has been a really good week. love everybody lots lots lots lots lots lots!!! talk to ya later!

-Caitlin

 HIM

He thinks its funny and so he smiles,

But does he see my fear inside.

He tells me and he walks away,

I scream, but he doesn’t hear me call his name.

I turn, and the tears start to come,

But I hold them back for one more run.

When everyone’s away- I ask my beloved friend if she knows the same.

I look into her eyes and she says the only thing we can do is pray,

But I can’t help but think there’s something else to do, to help in some way.

When I lay my head down that night

I cry myself to sleep-my dreams are only about him.

He needs you Lord, and in your arms tonight, send my angels to hold him safe and tight.

He had started to change- but the devil got him to soon.

Get back, go away- cant you see what you do?

You’re taking my dear friend away,

You’re hurting my dear friend and you don’t even care.

I love him and he’ll never know,

I care and I want him to know forever my love will always grow.

By: Caitlin Rose Severns

February 23, 2004

The Letter

There once was a young girl and she thought she had no reason to live. And then she received a letter, the golden envelope seemed to shine, her name in crimson red. She opened it and thinking to herself, but who? Who would love me – I’ve done so many things! She opened it and read:

      Beautiful,

I made you and I think you’re beautiful. Your happiness is only skin deep-but I can make it more. This happiness isn’t from something superficial like; drugs or sex- the world cannot give you my joy! This only comes from accepting me, I want your beauty to shine through- I want people to see me in you. Think about my love and grace, with the world it’s only a lifetime but with me it’s eternity! I have a mansion with diamonds and gems waiting for you. You are truly a princess- you are the daughter of the King of the Universe. Think about my love today, and when you feel like giving up I’ll be there. I love you.

                     The King of the Universe,

                                 God

This young girl was surprised, no one had ever loved her before. The love she experienced wasn’t worth anything and they always wanted something back. But this man, this God didn’t want anything except her. Suddenly the breeze stopped and she felt this warmth surround her. Instantly she knew what she must do; she ran to her room and opened her locked drawer-she took out the razor blades and the pills; she used days before. She even planned on ending this mess-supposedly called her life- with the help of these two things. But now she knew He loved her and He didn’t care about her past. The next day at school people kept asking her what was different and she just responded, “The Letter.” She knew all the things God asked, would come to pass at one time. As she was leaving for home she heard someone say, “ Hey, I want what she’s got, I want that glow.” She then realized this was the beginning of her life as the daughter of the King of the Universe.

Hey, i thought today was going to be a bad day because my one of my friends told me that this boy she had been dating, who is a total jerk, likes one of our friends. He doesnt even know her, he just likes her because she's hot!! I hate guys that are like that, which is almost everyone!! Why cant a guy look at the inside instead of the out! Well any way- this whole week has been about bullying something called a bully free week .

So first period my teacher is telling us she wanted to say something that would get to us, ya know spiritually and you have to know, i go to a christian school. So a teacher saying this is no big deal. But today it really got to me and she told us we needed to stop being fake and take off our masks. That was so true. Like 20 min. before the bell rang she gave us the time to pray and just really talk to God. I had my head lying on my desk and i was just pouring my heart out to God, i was telling him i know i need to change its just hard to give it all. I want to be sold out!! And thats so hard cause i feel like i need to be in control and if you know me very well, your one of the few people who know what i did to myself a couple years ago. So you know that i needed to be in control over myself since i couldnt control the things around me. I told God that i needed his help and i wanted people to see him through me and see my light and just be like, "Wow and want what she has, i want that glow." I also needed self-confidence because i hate the way i look and i want to change that and you can see im not the pretty, skinny, popular type. So i needed to feel truly beautiful not just on the outside but on the inside to. So the rest of the day was fine i didnt get to see my buddy Stamper but, thats ok. I also prayed for him, because i want God to help him learn how to control his anger and stay out of trouble, I prayed for another guy in my class to and im goin call him fro' so none, but a few of you from my class know who im talkin about. He's strayed from God over this year and hes changed alot, but i still love him ya know (not like a bf just as a brother in Christ) but i want him to look towards God. I want him to change his ways and maybe i can help him and he can help me. But i move on. After school was awesom me tweety, katie bug and fro' and giant (people from my school) were hangin out and fro' and giant were pulling our hair so we tryed getting them back. Giant doesnt have much hair cause its so short but fro' sure as heck does so we started chasing him  and he droped to the ground and like an inch of his boxers were showing so katie bug grabs and yanks em up and he starts screaming and it was sooooooo funny , and we were all there like 35min after school, we played a little softball and fro' and tweety got 2 softballs stuck in the gutter. Lol it was so much fun. Well i gotta go me and my sis are going to play baseball with some boys. Catch ya later, aligator. Lol just playin"

-Caitlin